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Tuesday, October 05, 2004

Undead Pain

this pain is beyond pain

a tightness grips inside my chest

i cannot force a tear to cry

i am beyond pain

i go to reach when you are not there

only few moments when i felt you here

ripped away so violently

its was all because of me

Will we meet officially?

somewhere past this vast eternity

how can i miss something that didn't get to exist

A payment in death, what was the punishment?

i wanna know your face

i wanna hear your voice

these things will not

be because you don't

but i know your name

I'm cradling an empty thought

I'm feeding pain that nags at my side

I'm searching to find your face

I only had to look from the inside

Will we meet officially?

somewhere past this vast eternity

how can i miss something that didn't get to exist

A payment in death, what was the punishment?

black and white circles

black masses and white flashes

a single image

black abyss, white solid circles

white spots and black washes

my only vision of you

can't i love the undead?

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Monday, September 27, 2004

Running against the wind
no time to stop, no time to delay
If i'm forced to stand still
then i'm forced to stay
Here
In a cold metal room
where they pry, the life from me
Nothing my own, just my skin
As they strap me down
Flood the chemicals in

Scrapping and sucking
Waiting and vomiting
A fear that floods me
And the one whose scarred me
The one who physically marred me
Has grown cold and cruel
Left me alone
in the operating room

Running against the wind
running with my spastic breath
my engery has returned
but the depression has not left
In time, she said that I shall forget
how can I, i replied
when the pain is still present
Every laugh,
A physically stab

Scrapping and sucking
Waiting and bleeding
Prying and prodding
A glimse of what could have been
an Image of promise
a life that dies born
a life that could have been my own

I wake up in a pool of my blood
I wake up to emyptness
I wake up to no one
I wake up only to wish
I didn't have to...
run against the wind

11:01 PM - 4 views - 2 eprops - 1 comment - email it

Friday, August 20, 2004

I am exhuasted!!!! I've been cleaning and cooking all day..mmmm my Italian cooking is yummMmMmmm. Tonite makes for an interesting night ;)

Yesterday suxxed. The only good momment is when I bought myself a beautiful bottle of Vodka and then drank a fourth of it. You would to if you had to sit and discuss your problems with a shrink for over 2 hours...sigh. I'm so sick of talking about why my life suxx.

Lets talk about the fun stuff!!! Ok Me and my lovey sisby got drruunk! I made us apple martinis and we did rum shots, and vodka. After the drinks were settling we both had a few confessions to make!!

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Saturday, August 14, 2004

The Road is Forked

I'm confused again
I'm stuck somewhere
Down that forked road, I've taken both paths
Here, they led me again
The same damn place.
Only to mistake

I made the same mistake again
Looking for something that I lost
Looking to make the mistake again
Searching to replace, searching to displace

Down the road, its litter with bodies
I tip-toed around them, but one of them spotted me
Secretly, silently hiding.
Behind locked doors, the animal is prying
The beast within us all is fighting

Unleashed and Uncaged
Through the wilderness you raged.
A final moment, taken now.
A final relase, your final bow.

Forked road again, an unexpected turn
I hear you call down the road.
What are my responses, delay with intoxication.
Fallen from your heavy load.
You ask if i can bear....

The consequences
All of the mistakes, i didnt miss my chance to take
And here I land, in the same damn place again

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Saturday, August 07, 2004

August 5th, 2004

Happy Birthday...enjoy your King!

Hacked By Krista (who the fuck else?)

Me, that's the who the f*ck else! HA! MUHAHAHAHA. Lol... jk, i luv ya Krista. I looooooove u too Jen!! Hope u like ur new pic I luv u more than angie does cuz i managed 2 'hack' into ur xanga... u crazy wild tipsy girl. Jen's a sexy beast... YEA BABY!! My precious.... yes my precious.... -Jeanne

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